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In a past life, I know I was a stripper.
I can be in my house all day and not talk to anyone.
I dont have a lot of friends.
I dont like to talk on the phone.
I dont do small talk.
Id say, Because youre always a dumbass and youre not learning.
It was great to see you and the other ladies in the studio audience for After the Final Rose.
What did you think of the finale?It was so beautiful.
But I also got sad.
But on finale night, I remembered why Ireallycame there.
I really did want to fall in love, and it didnt happen.
I wasnt really upset when Gerry and Theresa had the first date.
I dont share well.
My daughter was like, Thank God.
The show would have had to call the police.
Who is your key in?Let me pick somebody from Hollywood: Michael Keaton.
I think he is a private person; still waters run deep.
I think hes a lot like me.
He could control me, in a good way.
The dance would be erotic.
We only saw a glimpse of you at theGolden Bachelortalent show.
Was yours motivational speaking?I was so happy on that stage.
I dont know what happened to me, I think Ann-Margret possessed me.
Stand up and be tall.
Were going to break the glass ceiling.
I was preaching if I was in California, Id have a church.
And I would be friends with Marianne Williamson.
How did the all-April calendar you presented to Gerry come about?The producers wanted pictures.
I studied a little bit about lighting.
And I sent so many that they said, You want to make a calendar out of it?
And I was like, Yeah, why not?
Can I order an April calendar of my own?I would love to sell these suckers!
I have to pay for all my clothes.
They cost me a fortune.
You admitted to faking your pickleball ankle injury to get more attention from Gerry.
No, no, no.
I think quick on my feet, honey, trust me.
I mean, Ive got to do what Ive got to do if its not going my way.
She rides a pig and she has red galoshes.
Watching you and the other ladies develop such great friendships was my favorite part ofThe Golden Bachelor.
Youre in a house with no phone, no TV, no one youve ever known before.
They havent survived as deep of heartache as the women our age.
They havent lost children, spouses.
They havent lost jobs, they havent lost homes.
To them, this was, If I dont get a rose, Im going to die!
We dont say that.
Were like, Am I going to die?
I was going to die when my husband died, but Im still standing.
I never went away to college.
I thought, this is kind of a sorority lets make up our initials.
A for April, S for Susan …
It grew into a lot of beautiful conversations.
We would stay up till 4 a.m. just cracking up.
I almost peed my pants.
I dont know how we got up the next morning.
I pushed my bed next to theirs.
I go, Come on, girls!
I dont want to sleep by myself on the other side of the room.
Its too far away.
So we made a big California kingsize bed and it was really fun.
It was healing for me, because I never had that experience of girlfriends in a dorm.
We keep in contact quite a bit.
I love it Im going to be depressed when its over.
Im trying to figure out what to do now.
Well, I could go find Michael Keaton.
For some reason, when I saw him, my 6-year-old heart really made a connection.
I would turn on the music and I wouldnt hear the screaming or fighting or whatever was going on.
I could not give up Frankie Valli.
I didnt know if he was married or not.
This was before Google, before computers, before anything.
I was 16 years old.
And it was the 70s.
Everybody was sleeping with everybody.
I didnt write that book to imply he was a bad person, or he was grooming me.
The press took that.
Now, was he?
People say, He was a pig.
He shouldnt have done that.
I hope thats not the case.
I think he had lots of women.
But I didnt have lots of Frankie Vallis.
I only had one.
And I cant judge him.
It doesnt matter what he thinks.
It doesnt matter what he did.
It only matters to me how I grow from this.
The day he dies will be a sad day for me.
It will also be a relief for me its finally done.
I do believe in past lives.
This was not a lifetime we were to be together.
This is the first time Ive gotten to stand in my own power.
If love knocks me over, thats that.
Im going for it.
But I dont go on the internet, I dont do online dating.
I dont do anything.
I like reading and I like my spiritual stuff.
I like my kids.
I like my house.
Ralph shows up all the time.
Dead people are always here.
I always invite the angels.
This is a home of rest for them, so they can come and hang out.
This conversation has been edited and condensed.
