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I am unable to look away or think of anything else.
Despite the heartbreak, Bick left the pods with her reputation relatively intact.
I remember saying to the producers that my biggest fear was falling apart on television, she tells Vulture.
Thats the most vulnerable you’ve got the option to be, when your heart is broken.
But Bicks story didnt end there.
Tell me about your reunion look.In my bio, it says, Life is short, send a DM.
It applies to everything in life, not just the message I sent to Jeramey.
I was on season six ofLove Is Blind.
And they were like, Sure!
As far as the glitter, my makeup artist did a great job.
I was just embracing the vibes.
I fully embraced the experiment.
Within that environment, youre doing the best you could because its profoundly unique and abnormal.
So I followed my heart thats all I felt I could do in that situation.
You dont really see the connection Jeramey and I had, and I wanted to get that across.
The experiment wasnt over.
I felt like I was still very much a part of it.
I didnt get the closure I needed.
So, I sent the DM and I felt it was a very heartfelt message.
And it didnt go that way.
I never expected I would be where I am now.
From my perspective, I never felt like they wanted to be my friends.
Can you expand on the bullying?
I love to talk; Im very vocal.
And I could feel people talking about me; I could hear tidbits.
They turned their backs toward me.
I could never figure out what I was doing wrong.
I was kind to all of them and I wanted everyone to find someone they could potentially match.
When he broke up with me, I was at a loss for words.
I just broke down.
I was like, I am so hurt.
I feel blindsided and gaslighted.
And she did not have a bit of empathy for me.
Jess defended the connection Laura had with Jeramey and she did not feel that he did any of that.
I got removed from the group chat and had no way to defend myself.
There was no conversation with any of the women after that.
They iced me out completely.
Listen, things couldve been done differently.
I also didnt go for friends.
I went to meet the love of my life.
I was afraid the message would be sent out to the group chat I was no longer in.
She took the message Jeramey got, screenshotted it, and blasted me to everyone else.
I went back and forth.
I thought,Maybe I should just do this because I dont want her to be hurt.
But also, I was very real in my apology to her at the lake.
At the time, Jeramey and I werent even in a relationship.
I couldnt bring myself to reach out because of the amount of shade being thrown my way.
What is your definition of agirls girl?
My loyalty resides with those who are allowing me to be my full self and vice versa.
I will always stand up for women, 100 percent.
But you have to fight for what you want, you really do.
That to me is a true womans woman.
I think its a little outlandish to say that all the women in the cast were girls girls.
The goal was not to go to meet friends.
I wouldve been floored if one of them said, Lets not just bash Sarah Ann the entire time.
But I think Nick and Vanessa did a great job asking the questions.
I want to go back to something you said in the pods while talking to Jeramey about your beliefs.
You said, Im a huge patriot.
I am unapologetically American, and Im proud to live in the greatest country in the world.
Thats all I meant by that.
Also, for people to have a choice in what they believe and how they feel.
I am standing up for that even if its different from what I believe!
Theres a time and place for these conversations.
I have a great relationship with every single one of my friends.
We have those conversations, and we talk about that often.
You seem very happy now.
Was it all worth it to get to this?
Was Jeramey worth it in the end?Jeramey is a great guy.
People get to see such a short snippet of who we are.
We are characters to a lot of people.
Its been completely worth it.
I would do it again, because it was such an incredible, once-in-a lifetime opportunity.
The hate stinks, some of it gets taken completely out of context and taken way too far.
But I got what I came for.
This interview has been edited and condensed.
